He strode into the classroom, the zoo more like, he swore under his breath. Grey clusters of tables in a mess, with pieces of "artworks" that occupy the surface. He cringed. Draggings of chairs created the familiar metallic screech in his ears as he audience rose. Animals.

A quick moment; a quick study. A glance around was enough to tell. Wild animals. None looked civilised. None actually looked ready. There are some, but few, who actually took to the labour of going through their toilets, but nothing escaped his sharp eyes, his nature that flinched at the slightest hint of imperfection. He just couldn't stand defects.

It was only the start of the day and yet, he felt like his morning has been ruined. Did they come here for other things? You call this the best? The lousy, unthinking animals, always waiting to be fed? His anger boiled at the thought. A momentary conflict occurred in the highly intellectual mind. They are different. Yes, they ARE different.

But isn't this standard too low for a so-called slightly higher mentality? The question raged constantly in his inner thoughts, that once or twice was revealed with a slip of tongue and the ill patience, as he managed to employ himself with his supposed profession. Proud fools. Unmotivated brats. The worse place. The confounded batch of his new allocation. So much for promotion.

He hated this. They were plain stupid, refusing to render their minds for further questioning that would enhance the learning ability and their performance. Make them think, he could not. Motivated? That'd be a cross. It was so different.

Different from his past. The past of his golden years, his achievements which is not duly his, but his favourites. Motivated learners. Always being looked-up to. The future of the country. He still remembered, he chose the profession for the service of the country, to nurture its future, to aid them in achieving their goals. It was not one he regretted. He reaped his work of perspiration in unbidden and hidden tears of joy when his work was completed, when his fruits ripened, so beautifully and courageously, ready to emerge out into the full blaze of the fleeting world.

But that was his past.

A past that just seemed like it is returning but the present destroyed all hopes, smearing reality into his face. One more, and I'll be done, he encouraged himself as the bell rang. The students muttered cries of satisfaction, some quietly, some openly, but he saw them all. He, too, himself, murmured a breath of prayer unknowingly, eager to cast himself out of the asylum.

I'll get out of here one day. Why teach when they're so unmotivated? A waste of their time, a waste of my time. I wasn't here to educate weak-minded individuals.

Perhaps.

I.AM.VERY.ANGRY.RIGHT.NOW.

What have I been thinking the last few years !?

She's gone..forever and I'll never be able to catch her. How lasting our moments seemed! Yet, I was never good enough and people change their minds after sometime. It made me cry, those times, it seems so eternal yet it doesn't even last a decade. The memories killed me so slowly yet torturous. The realisation that you will never be with me. You're so altered, so changed. I grieve my loss over such a precious you, every night. I had feared this would come and had prepared for it but all my efforts are in vain. You had my confidence. You did. My confidantes are ones whom I valued so highly above all the others. I've let myself down, again. I blame upon myself.

I was always wronged this way anyway. Always.

It's just a matter of "when".

I shall write wot I did today. Happy New Year anyway! :D

So today, went to Kovan for CHURCH...they relocated..to so far a place x_x Anyhow, the ride was so loooooong and My family ditched me because I was slow and so I was the last to come out -.- Some family ! so.. I have to come alone x(

and then when I reached there, the worship already started and there was no place so I have to go upstairs and bleagh bleagh...before Angelene finally joined me up there because there was so Class for Youth class on the first week. Anyhow,we endured there and when the thing ended, we got off and it was so awkward because there was nowhere to hang around and the Sun...gosh...I think it got heated up so bad today.. x_x

and then after Church, I came home ALONE, again, first because my family was talking and talking..and it was so crowded and hot I can't bear it anymore... Thank goodness for my keys.. haha :D

When my family finally come back, my sister and brother and I went out to fly kite.. well..at first it was epic fail but after some retarded running and shoutings the Kite finally launched ...pfftttt...and the grass was so muddy..

anyway, I have to launch it twice and it took all my energy..and when it finally does STAY there and I get to sit with my siblings, it was already dark and small insects start their activities. JUST MY LUCK..next time must go earlier.. haha..

Okay so that was it...we came back, I took a long shower and then...was so hungry.. but then.. THERE WAS NO MORE RICE. :( so I have to cook my own noodles.. Nowadays been eating noodles a lot x_x not healthy! Not healthy at all !

SO yeah.. after my dinner.. I am here ... posting this and gonna Watch Fairy Tail later ;)

Next time buddies !

:D

P.S : I love my Father :D

OMG omg omg omg.. I feel so happy I don't know how to express this happiness..Imma die out of happiness - that was some days ago.

LOL. lame. Er so.. Nothing much , I just got rest from a few things.. haha

So I went for the New year celebration on Christmas and well, I MET CHRISTINE AND THANDAR :D SO HAPPPPYY Hahahaha.. So it just passes on like that..er yeah.. My sister did quite a good job dancing that bamboo dance,, haha.. imma a proud mama, I mean, sissy. LOL.

SO yesterday went to Clementi to meet with Hui Teng and Juice and after a little borrowing at the library, we walked for hours around the mall and obsessed about Fairy Tail and forcing Juice to watch it .. haha now she's watching it :D

Anyway, LOKI IN FAIRY TAIL IS SOOO CHARMING, UEWHFDSJHFGSLJ!!!!! SOOOOOO IN LOVE NOW :D

Haha.. and well, I have been doing some exterminating-bugs work in my room today.. and now .. well yeah.. nothing much. so I am blogging :D haha.. okay.. can't type that much anymore.. BYE !

Okay so yesterday was Christmas Eve and well.. let me say..it

My cousin brother's 1st birthday is tomorrow but we decided to celebrate it on the 24th so when I woke up, everything was neat in the living room and my room is a jungle, a living jungle. haha..

And then I eat first, Nasi Braini or so.. and it was so fulfilling and then guests started coming in and I retreated to the jungle, being an antisocial I am. But that does not last long because I went to help out in the kitchen and stuffs and the whole day passed like that with me occasionally picking on the agar agar jelly...hehehehh..

and then the long service started and I realised, NO ONE WAS TAKING THE PHOTOS. So I quickly adapted myself to become the cameraman while the teacher asked me to read the bible verses.....and so I moved around the whole day taking pictures. LOL.

The cake was delicious but the birthday boy is very erm... how do I say it, never stay at one place. lol. So it's hard to take pictures, dammit !

and then My sister came back and told me to go to Church for wotever thing they're performing for our youth class and I was all blurrr mind you.

I have half a mind to turn back and go home but my parents SAID they're coming so I waited. And the play was .... x_x They put me in a role and I was the first person out and I don't even know wot's happening and I just looked around the stage with a blurry face and it's done.. oh my FACEEEEEEE...

and then the midnight service started and I think the Choir singing the Cantata is very nice.. they sing the O Holy Night too :D My favouriteeeee.. haha

It ended 30 minutes earlier than expected and my parents aren't there yet and my sister and I waited in the rain ....and when they do come,..well..of course, it's late .. lols

The ride home was a very cold ride. The wind was blowing against our faces and the rain too ...woah.. I was chilled to the bones !

and then when we reached home, I was famished so I devoured a plate of nasi braini and then wait a while to sleep..because I was too full.. oh greedy little me.

And when I woke up, it was very late for Church.. and hey Merry Christmas to you all ! :D

I remember this time of the year last year, I would be on a coach from Pathein to Yangon...and then when I reached my home there, there would be my families because we always had a family gathering at my house every Christmas and My grandma's siblings and their families will be there and it's very fun to play with y second cousins and such :D ..and now? Nothing =="

Karen New year is also today and the same too... I mean family gatherings.. but right now, there's nothing.. except to go to a place for the celebration in the evening.. It's not as fun you know.. but I'll have to endure... gahh..

I miss my Cousins...

Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy Karen New Year to you all ! May God bless you always !

Hello guys ! I am happy because I GOT TO WATCH SHERLOCK HOLMES :DDD Well, HT and Juice aren't interested in Sherlock Holmes ( think they prefer Alvin and the Chipmunks) and refused to watch ..-some friends!, haha jk :D I love them all the same, So it looks like I'm going alone because I refuse to pay for my bro and sis -.- and then a friend to the rescue ! Well, well, Eh Tha Khu was kind enough. lol.

And the train was ultraaa superrr slow , mind you. thought I was going to miss a part of the movie.. I dieded like a hundred times cursing SMRT. -.-

and he was more late and I reached there in times, thank goodness.. and it was still in the commercials part.. PHEWWW..

and then the Movie was awesome, like I got a glimpse of Victorian England and stuffs and the fancy dresses and suits ..ahh.. I wish..

Anyhow, it was very cold that day and was raining heavily and when I came back the place was as crowded as ........shhhh... and so I alighted at a station and waited like 30 FREAKING MINUTES FOR THE BUS. -.-

and when it come.. it was a double decker :DDD and was so cold inside I just put my sweater to cover and then sleep the whole way home.. Shiokness :P

haha so today, it is Christmas Eve and by right, I'm supposed to go to City Harvest Church with Juice and HT and Megan but I've got a thanksgiving service at home for my cousin's 1st birthday ... so .. I am here, typing after eating and getting bored but I've got no inspirations to write....WTSSSSSSSS.............

haha. One more week to school ): AHHH!!! KILL ME.. I DREAD CCA. And I AM SEC 3 ... X_X

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